I don’t know how I’m so unstable with my self image an my ability to speak out loud.. I can type for ever more and say everything. but words don’t flow so easy for me. I feel like I’m cracking an I’m trying to hold it smooth but it’s just not as simple as I keep praying it will become.. I have too many feelings and emotions, I get too confused about everything and I try not to hurt myself but it’s at times like this that it feels like the right thing for me to do.