I’m really struggling with this thing in me head. Theres more of that than there is of me rn. I’ve tried to fight an i won the him wanting me dead battle, but i dunno if i can keep fighting his strength of control. His want to be me and not me. I don’t even think that makes sense. But i think what im trying to say is maybe its a good idea for me to let him have control let him do me an make my moves and be sorry to anyone he hurts on his way is the best way for me now? Just pray i get out the other end and people can forgive?